I will not feel sorry one day....

This is a true experience I had on my last trip back to Malaysia. I was driving along Jalan Duta at the round about turning right to Jalan Kuching. Traffic was slow as usual and I taking my time to take extra carefull to make my way turn right. With my right indicator right on I slowly make my way as soon I enter the round about and make my right turn.

As usual most Malaysian driver DO NOT understand the word and the meaning of give way to right. It mean ' You always look right and if there is a vehicle on your right you MUST give way'. I still have to craw slowly to my exit and held up hundred of cars behind me.

As soon I make my way to my exit and speed up a bit to my suprise out of no way at my left eye glance I feed something is coming. Yep! out of no where a bike come out from left stright to the right infront of my car with out even look at me. I hit he break to avoid the colision and horn him. Young Malay fellow as he look at me and show his middle fingger with an angry face. I mean to warn him how dangeous the way he ride his motobike but yet I get a middle fingger. Not just that with one hand one the handle and the other show his finger to me for a few second until he out of my site. He really made my day.

From that time I just wonder if he remember he had a mother waiting for him at home or wife and children at home waiting for dinner that night. If I wouldn't hit the brake I might hit him and he could be in serius injury! But yet as a Malay and probably MUSLIM he didn't care or 'bersyukur' that he safe another day. As a Malaysian, Malay and Muslim he didn't respect the law either his local law or his religion law!

One of this day if I hit another young motorbike driver I will not feel sorry about it. If he die in the colision I still don't even feel sorry about it. I think the way they ride the bike the deserve it!

Maybe next time I will not going to be bother hitting my brake! Just hit them so I don't have to see another finger pointing at me and ruin my whole day!

Now I know....

Ever I wonder for very long time where the money go. I am talking about Jabatan Pengangkutan Jalan (JPJ) for example. See this is my theory regarding how Malaysian government keep burden their people. It a simple calculation.

Malaysian government encourage their people to 'berhutang' in some many way. It either small thing from Singer or Court Mammoth to Cars and houses. We talk about how the govenment making money from this kind loan in later day.

Lets talk about JPJ. Let said half of Malaysia population own a vehicles such as cars, bike, van, lorry etc. Let say 12 million vehicle register to JPJ. and let said average 'road tax' (ops it is not a road tax now -sensitif lor). Let said average registration per vehicle are RM100.00 each. JPJ collected minimum of RM12 billion if my calculation is right each year without fail. That an average of RM100 per registration some pay more than that.

I just with that kind of money.. Malaysia should be toll free road. The amount of money collected by JPJ is more than enough to cover the cost build and maintenance of the road system (if they don't jack up the cost la to cover some people).

Then I met a senior government official lately and ask them this question.

Now I know where the money goes!

Malaysian government have they way of collecting revenue from each department. Each money come from any government department have to sent to Finance Ministry (i think). All the money collected by any department including JPJ. And JPJ or any other department need the money need to ask back from the finance ministry or MTEN provided that the come up with good proposal and good recomendation from their officer.

I don't think the is the right way to run the country. This is wrong. So no matter how hard you work and how much money you collected yo have to give to some one and they decided to give back to you or not!

No wonder the government are still the government and the mentality will never change for the better.. better for the people.

Now I know!

The day has come! Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.

1. Year by year we get less and less greating and well wishing card. I guess when the day comes and you're less important to them so you're not need to be remembered. Even how close you're at one time one day you will be forgoten. I guess that part of life. Don't really mind actually as I would have though this will happened. I also know a fews are looking for me to send the card and i am greatfull specially this time of the years. So far I received only one card!

2. This year will be a slow raya for me. I guess my heart are no longger here. It time for me to go back. Years I planned to go back and I guess this year will be the year. Time to go.. time to make a moved!. I did tried while I am here but not going to happned. So time to go back and do good to my country. I did my part here as Malaysia and contribute to my country even Dato Rais Yatim not aggreed as he think Malaysian abroad not contributed to Malaysia. I think he should know how many I have convince Malaysian to go back and serve Malaysian. For how long I've been mentioning how wonderful our country are and for so manny Malaysian I said ' to make a changes you have to be in it and not barking from outsite'. I think I did contribute enough to bring and change malaysian heart to go back and serve their country.

3. Danish my 3 plus year old son will cerebrate his 3rd year raya down under. He in play school 3 minute walk from home. Picture taken last month at Mt Buller. Danish first time on his own taking a slide. Look at his face... how excited he is! of how terrified he is? Every morning Danish looking forward going to school. Taking his own shower.. getting dress-up event putting his own shoe. Don't forget his sack bag. Babai Daddy... with smile and kises!

Dimana harga nyawa kita?

Baca Utusan online tadi. Ada lagi kemalangan melibatkan bas express dan lori. 2 maut dan 5 cedera parah. Sedih setiap kali aku membaca berita tentang kemalangan lebih-lebih lagi melibatkan kenderaan awam. Kita bergantung kepada kenderaan awam untuk membawa kita pulang samada pulang ke kampung untuk melihat sanak saudara, ibu, ayah, adik dan kawan-kawan. Atau pun kita mahu pulang untuk menyambung rezeki untuk membantu ayah ibu di kampung atau membiayai persekolahan adik-adik.

Malangnya kenderaan yang kita harapkan untuk membawa kita menuju ke destinasi tidak menghargai nyawa kita. Kita adalah anak kepada ibu dan ayah, adik kepada abang dan kakak. Malangnya pemandu yang kita letakkan keselamatan kita tidak tahu bahawa betapa pentingnya diri kita kepada keluarga yang kita sayangi. Hari ni seorang ayah (pemandu trailer) yang mencari rezeki untuk anak dan isteri tidak pulang kerumah. Bagaimana perasaan seorang isteri bila suaminya tiada disini? Anak-anak akan besar tanpa ayah? Seorang kakak atau adik tidak dapat kita dengar suaranya lagi.

Aku amat benci tikamana perkara ini berlaku. Apakah nyawa kita tidak pernah dihargai? ataupun kita ini hanya melukut ditepi gantang? Apakah pemandu kenderaan boleh membawa nyawa kita sesuka hati mereka?

Kalau aku jadi Pemerintah Negara anak aku hukumkan pemandu yang bersalah itu dengan kesalahan membunuh! sama seperti gengster yang membunuh orang. Itu bukan satu kemalangan... itu adalah kecuaian.

Kalau aku jadi Pemerintah Negara anak aku hukumkan juga pemilik syarikat kenderaan tersebut atas kesalahan bersubahat dengan pembunuh. Kenapa? kalau ditanya pemilik perlu dihukum? 'Kerana' jawab ku, 'Kerana pemilik syarikat tersebut tidak menyedarkan pekerjanya betapa pentingnya satu nyawa itu. Bukan betapa cepat pekerjanya boleh sampai atau berapa laju ia boleh memecut atau bagaimana bijaknya dia kalau boleh bolos dari dikejari pihak berkuasa'.

Kalau aku jadi Pemerintah Negara, akan aku tambahkan pengetahuan anak negaraku tentang pentingnya sebuah keluarga itu, akan aku ajarkan anak negaraku tentang kepakaran didalam kerjaya mereka. Akan aku ajarkan tentang kesabaran... akan aku khabarkan supaya jangan menjadi hamba kepada wang.

Aku tidak mahu dengar lagi suara-suara yang membisik ' Apa nak buat Tuhan sayangi dia' atau pun ' Sudah nasib badan...' Aku tidak mahu dengar lagi dalam berita esok menceritakan bagaimana simati yang kelihatan pelik atau tidak seperti biasanya kerana ia akan mati esok. Aku tidak mahu dengar lagi.

Aku tidak mahu lagi jadi pembaca berita yang sedih. Mungkin aku boleh berkata ' Tak apa bukan abang aku yang mati itu, atau bukan adik aku' tapi mereka berdua yang meninggalkan kita itu adalah abang kepada adik-adiknya dan anak kesayangan kepada ibu dan ayah mereka.

Dimana letaknya harga nyawa kita....

Danish

Rabu, pagi... badan aku letih-letih. 4 hari berturut-turut aku balek lewat malam buat kerja. Pagi kul 5 dah bangun keluar rumah dan lewat tengah malam baru sampai rumah. Bawa visitor dari Malaysia kehulu dan kehilir. Semalam last.. hantar mereka kat Melbourne airport.. babai... Sampai rumah dah jam 1 pagi. Dalam hati sebelum tidur ' lega... besok boleh bangun lewat' hajad di hati nak lepak atas katil sampai tengah hari.

6:00 am - Aku dengar pintu bilik dibuka. seruk-serak dengar bunyi heretan tapak kaki kecil menjelagah masuk menghampiri katil ku. Ku buka mata ku yang keletihan nampak Danish memanjat tebing katil. ' Aaahh.. biarkan dia panjat sendiri' fikir ku. Aku lalu meniarapkan badanku. Conforter ku tarik terasa panas selimut itu. 'Best nyer'. Aku fikir Danish akan masuk kedalam selimut dan memanaskan badanku sekali. Belum sempat aku memelapkan mata... ' Daddy...' Danish menjerit disebelah cuping telinga kiri ku! ' Aduh!....' "Danish.. Daddy nak rehat sikit hari ini' lalu aku menarik selimut menutup kepalaku.

Tiba-tiba Danish melompat dibelakang ku! Aku terkejut lantas urat belakang ku tertarik! Aduh aku menahan sakit. 'Daddy.. Daddy... Danish memanggil ku. Aku sudah kurang mendengar panggilan Danish. Lantas kupanggil isteriku untuk bawa Danish keluar bilik.

Aku kira Danish mungkin merindui aku setelah 3-4 hari aku tidak bersama Danish. Selepas itu 4 hari lagi aku menahan sakit urat belakang aku. Nasib baik Dr Zahir ada bekalkan aku ubat tahan sakit.

Just wonderfull feeling.

Nothing in this world I needed to start my day every morning when Danish came out from his room and sneek in under my warm blancket. Just feel wonderfull. Just a wonderful feeling I had every morning.

Sneeking in my blanket with his warm small cuddly body.... and asked me to change to cartoon channel. 'Nanti.. tunggu Daddy tengok news bagi habis'. So Danish stay quitely until I finished watching the news at 7:00 am.

Nothing make me feel good when see Danish completed his puzzle. Then ' huhhhh....' Danish mengeluh. Di rombakkan puzzle itu lagi kemudian di susunnya semula. I think I need a new puzzle for him. That are to easy for him.

Danish just over 3 years old. Masih tak boleh bercakap dengan betul. Just 'Mama' with soft tone. I guess let it be for a while. Let Danish 'jangan pandai cakap lagi'. Just a moment longger. 'Kalau dah pandai cakap nanti, I just wonder what would I answer when he ask ' Where God came from?'

Sometime at night Danish pretend to sleep on the sofa because I knew he wanted me to carry him to his bed. I can see his eye open just to see me carry him to bed and kiss him say good nite.

Danish just a wonderful boy. I don't remember when the last time Danish 'kembung perut' atau demam. I am very lucky for that! Syukur terhadap yang Kuasa. Some parent didn't go to work because anak sakit, well I don't have to worry about that.

Victoria in record book!

Victoria having a difficult start for 2009.

173 victorian die from bush fire this week. The worse natural disaster ever in recorded history even since Ash wednesday in 1983. Sad when I think about it so many life gone leaving friend and relative. There are people die try to get out from the disaster area, die in the car, die in their own home. I just wonder why the authority did not make an attemt to rescue them? I am sure they did make a SOS call. Sad

2009, victoria recorded also the hotest summer in century for January. For a week tempreture are above 43 degree. House like an oven can't do much except heading to shopping mall where it cooling in there.

Australian will lost 500,000 job this year, economics expected due to economic crisis. My friend told me this economic crisis created by american just to put down china. Otherwise china going to be so big and so powerfull. I guess my friend could be right. American can sen the troop to china to attact them... so they attact via economy and finance. American is controlling the world. As Obama said '..... as you need America.'

My pray to all bush fire victim. I wish I can contribute something for them as we all human.

What a day!

• Melbourne hit by heat wave.
• Landlord call bad news need to move out.
• Black out at home.

Melbourne recorded highest tempreture ever recorded in history 44.5 Celcius. Some beleive it could reach 55 Celcius. Too hot... can do much. House like an oven. Put the fan on but only the hot win blow to my face. Still need to do some works at home. Luckly Danish in Malaysia otherwise I will probably have to take him to the pool.

While do some work suddenly phone ring. Peter, agent for my house call. "I have a bda new Fuad, you remember Andrew?' 'Yes' I reply. 'Andrew is coming back from Sydney, he need his house back'. Ermm.... ' Ok, Peter not a problem'. I know Peter feel sorry for me but I have done with my contract and they can do wat ever they want to do. Actually I don't really mind. I still in delema weather to stay here in Melbourne or going back to Malaysia.

Ok.. let surf around on the net to check any good vacant property around here. Just about me to suft... 'Click!' suddendly everything turn off? First come to mind.. Did I paid the electrick bill? Yes I did... I guess because ot the heat might trigger the black out! God!

What to do? the heat really come to me... Got up.. get dress... start the car and go to shopping mall. Where is cooler there....

What a day!

Australia Day

Australia day today. Australia day? Friend just ask why do they pick 26 Jan as Australia day? Good question, actually I've been looking for that answer for last couple of day. Actually 26 Jan (a few hundred year ago) is the day first white ship from europe ( I assume from england) dock at Sydney habour. It quite interesting actually Australian remember they day they invade this country. Why? What happned to the native aborigin here? Do they celeberate too? I guess not... How can you celebrate and remember the day you been invaded? Do you remember of celebrate the day someone robbed or rape you? Interesting but sad actually.

Anyway Roger make thru to semi final at Australian Tennis Open. This year going to be interesting year on Australia Tennis. All the top player qualified. I put my money on Roger. This month we all have nothing to do except glue to TV's, with tennis, cricket and soccer. I just wonder why they call TV is idiot box.

It going be very hot week next week from tommorow tempreture will above 30 C.

Doing washing today, accidently termasuk Danish sock in the washing machine. Just wonder how is he doing over in Malaysia. Missing him much. You see 'You don't really missed some one until they gone.'

Lastly to all my Chinese and Vietnamise friend 'Kong Xi Fatt Chai' and 'Happy New Year'

Friend is all I have!

Mereka Tak Kenal Ke Siapa Saya?

This is a true story happened last month. Month of December... Month of graduation.. month of bila you baling batu kat Melbourne mesti kena Malaysian...

So alot of Malaysian... including VIP's from Malaysia comes for their children graduation day including VIP from Kelantan and Johor that I know. VIP from Kelantan a Tan Sri contact me for round of golf thru his close friend. So it ok by me as I am a freelancer now... more free then lancer at that time. So I bring my other friend with attached with Malaysian government agency here to complete 4 ball (what is 4 ball... if you want to know.. please take up golf now). The VIP's from Kelantan don't mind as I know him couse I was looking after his daughter here. He is one of the nice guys one I ever met and the youngers full Minister in Malaysia ever appointed. I ask him 'Tan Sri, tak sibuk ker dengan Persidangan UMNO nanti?' 'Kita bagi pada orang baru la, kita ni dah lama'...

I guess that the way it suppose to be.. give way for new breed, new mind new idea. I really enjoy his company.. funny and very entertaining yet full of knowledge and fact. Infact in did mention to him that I never met any politician as entertaining and with vast knowledge as he is. Anyway he said he just want to spent time with his family and will support from belakang tabir for UMNO....

Half way thru golf on hole 8 my friend receive a call from VIP from Johor a Dato'. He lost his passport and he going back to Malaysia next day 3:45 flight. He need the temporary passport urgently. Since we play on friday and MHC Canberra close for Friday prayer, my friend can't do much until after 3:00pm. 30 minute later my friend received another call from Dato, he explain the situation nothing can be done until after 3:00pm. Suddenly I over heard from the phone 'Mereka tak kenal ker siapa saya?...

God! I was thinking they maybe VIP of MP's but they don't owned the country. I am sure everyone doing their best at their job. I told Tan Sri one Australian MP said 'Do you know who I am?' 2 week later she asked to resign. These people should understand why they are there now without public support. Regardless if they are a Prime Minister or Minister, they are choose by the people. It doesn't mean if 'Mereka tak kenal saya...' mean the people will pay less attention to the matter. We man are equal or 'Islam itu saudara' No man can treat any different from other and no man have more privillage from others. ...

I think the MP's shouldn't be address 'Yang Berhormat' should be address 'Yang berkhidmat'. Be choose them to 'berkhidmat' to us. I think we highly regard the MP to hight that the MP's or VIP forget that they are there because of us.. not we here because of them....

...anyway Dato' passport solve the next day. I just wonder if he can loose his passport today... I am sure he can and will loose his job soon.

Melbourne as Jan 20, 2009

Melbourne today reach 40 degree plus. As usual Melbourne mercury will automatically raise up when Australia Open start. Just come back from airport sending Shah and Wish back to Malayia and on the way back the tempereture in my car reach 40.5 Celcius.

Australia Open tennis commence today. One of Melbourne proud world class sport event. Roger could make it this time as he missed it last year. Funny thing is I've been here for more than 26 years but never been to Australia Open. Ermmm may be this year...! oh did I said that last year.. or year before that...

In lesss then 24 hour Obama will get in to oval office in white house. I guess everyone is excited.. the world is exited! Hopefully there will be changes for the better world. Funny thing is I just wonder why the Jews attacted Palestine a week before Obama officially as a President and stop a day before Obama walk into white house. And for the first time America have the youngers President in the history (Obama is 47 yo - a year youngger then me) and he is also the first black (I have to say black-african-american). I guess it must have something to do with the Vice President. I belief he is the 'main man'.

Receive wedding invitation from Laila... her big day on 25 Jan. Congratulation...! I can't make it but will ask missus and Danish to go on my behalf. It good to know that she still remembered us and kind enough to look for me and send me her wedding card. Sweet girl Laila is. I remember she used to help me a lot at Penang Place. Never lack of smile and never see her upset or sad. Who ever he is... he a one lucky @#$%^. Congratulation again Laila...

Dinner tonight pasta and roast chicken...

Sms and Email - New edge of poison pen.

I received sms from friend in Malaysia regarding Lina Joy and Dato' Mansor convert to Christian and they won their court case. This in concerning me specially the new way spreading the poison pen. I reply to my dear friend, 'Have you confirm the truth on this issue before you forward this sms? I asked. 'I can be fitnah if it not true.' She said please the website. I checked the website and found nothing to confirm the story.

This really make me sick. The new way human kind spread rumour... This kind unconfirm issue for some can belief it straight away and start spreading. Sooner when the sms spread wide enough it become believable and it can become true if you belief it. Anything if you belief can become true.

I contacted my friend mentioning that the news she spread are not true and asked her to check and confirmed anything before forwarded the sms. I hasn't heard from her since then.

Same thing last week I received email from another friend regarding the inccident in carefour Melawati. One malay guys bashed young Malaysian Chinese wearing T-shirt with picture a pig and a dog.

I am not sure if this kind of story is true or not and and wish it can be verified by authority.

What happing to us? Just simply believe what others told us without checking? Who are we? Some low minded person just take what been given and start spreading without checking?


Please for those happy sms trigger or email forwarder, please do not simply forward anything before you are sure the truth about it about it. This is not something you can 'Baling batu dan sorok tangan?' Your email and phone number attached. You will be responsible for it and you could probably be charge!

As a Muslim something is not sure or without enough evident or enough witness can be 'fitnah' if you spread it. 'Fitnah' is unacceptable in Muslim way of life. .... and we believe we are Muslim, let practice a good Muslim value. Islam is not just praying. it more than that.

New Beggining - January 2009

Another New Year, another new beginning. I guess life haven't change much. Except for Danish now 3 years old nothing much change lately excpt meeting new friends and keep other friends closer and improving in my golf. I guess that will be my new year resolution for 2009, keep closer with others, improve my golf and writing this long over due blog.

I haven't keeping intouch for a long time. I guess my previous job make me think that others need me more than I need them which I think is true. Living abroad make you wanted and respect by others. I don't really mind actually and this is the thing I good at... giving hand to others. Mum always complain and make sure I have something in return with them. I guess that is not up to me to asked for something in return. It up to them and God to value my contribution to them. So far I haven't been in deep trouble, never out of money, never had a lot of money either but we get by. I am rich on experience, had a lot of friends some I keep some I am not and some I just remember them from time to time and wonder how are they doing now specially ex-hallian and petronas student. I know they remember me and what I have done to them as much I remember and thinking of them from time to time.

Once my wise friend Dr Zaharah told me 'Kawan adalah salah satu punca rezeki'. I guess she was right. From now on I will keep intouch with them even thou' they're not keen to reply me email of sms but that not matter. What matter is I have to start first without any hidden agenda, just try to be a friend.

The light of my life

Last Friday 9 Jan, 2009 I sent my wife Sabariah and my son Danish and sister Shamshida to Melbourne airport returning to Malaysia. This time my wife and son going back for 2 months. He.. he.. he.. I think probably she will be back sooner than she think. She been living in Melbourne for more than 7 years and loving it! I am on my own and used to it. Life is simple and make it simple. Somethimes there are thing we can do without! Make use of it.

I would probably will missed my son Danish more than I missed my wife but there's life I guess. 3 years old is a good year for Danish where baby turn to be child. I would probably will missed everytime I walk in to the house Danish will greet me and say 'Up' mean asked me to 'dukong' him. And where Danish tried to explain to me what he has done today with his own bubly word and with his serius face. Event I tried very hard to get him but I couldn't! Feel sorry for him after that. He's a fine boy Danish, he is the sunshine in my life and the reason for me to be at home. 'House is just a house until you have a child then the house will turn to 'home' where our life worth living'.

This year I write more on this blog. Keep posted!


Cheers!

End of 2008

December 2008.

Israel attacked Palestine out of nothing. It shock me... and shock half the world. For no good reason poor Paletine been attacked. I guess is in Jews heart like to do something and ask later. Let us attack Palestine first... Let kill woman and children.. let attack school and hospital.. or better still let attack UN office.. like anyone care what the Israel do. Of couse the jews can do anything they want and always get away on it. Funny.. even the ARAB don't do anything.

So they control the media... let the media know there are one.. ONE Israel civilian die from Hammas small rocket. Don't worry about Israel helicopter using sophisticated modern and unknown missile killed more than 600 civilian in one attack. Don't show that no more. Let play how bad Hitler was toward Jews during WWII. This month in Diecovery channel they have a show Hitler Diary... and so forth. Just to show how Jews was treated during the war.

So how about how Muslim was treated during Bosnian war? Do anyone care?